Day 13

My story (3 minute read):

I’m Hamza. I’m a normal guy who just randomly discovered the path of discipline and masculinity. I’m pretty obsessive, so I went all in.

Here’s my timeline:

13-18: Loser, video gamer, virgin

18-21: Degenerate, party boy

21-22: Anxious, depressed, and completely lost. Smoking we*d & jacking it to p*rn daily. I would watch self-help content but never take action. Just mindless consumption. Stuck in a toxic relationship with a girl from my party days. We didn’t trust each other, yet we lived together—a miserable reality when the person closest to you feels like a stranger.

22: We break up, and I move back to my parents’ house. That’s when I go all in on discipline—1 hour of meditation every day, fully committed to self-improvement. I start posting on YouTube and hit 1,000 subscribers by December 2020. Then, I date a girl I met on Tinder—she partied and smoked we*d with other guys. That ends too, after her family accuse me of being controlling because I wanted her to stop going out with guys to parties.

23-24: Hit 3,000 subscribers by my birthday (June 10th), and everything takes off after that. Hit 50k in December 2021. My life starts scaling up—fancy gyms, international trips, and some chaotic stories along the way:

- *Mexico:* Got caught having s*x in public and had to run from the police.
- *Greece:* Took a waitress from my home town, I liked her—until she casually mentioned she was known in university for “hooking up with black guys.” I’m brown.
- *Amsterdam:* Tried psyched*lics with my employees, but it hit me so hard I ended up hiding in the toilet, journaling on my phone while everyone else had a great time upstairs. I could hear them laughing.
- *Thailand:* We*d became legalised while I was there. RIP 2 months of productivity.

Life felt big and wild, but the deeper questions about fulfilment started creeping in.

25-26: On my 25th birthday, I hit 500k subscribers. It felt like everything I’d worked for was finally paying off, and I let myself enjoy the fruits of my labor. But with success came complacency. I stopped meditating, lost discipline, and started slipping. "Pride comes before the fall" couldn’t have been more true. I hit 1 million subscribers and moved to Dubai, becoming one of those cringe materialistic influencers. My life looked perfect on the outside, but behind the scenes, I was overwhelmed with extreme stress and shitty health. By the time I hit 2 million subscribers, I was making insane amounts of money but felt purposeless and directionless. I missed the simplicity and fulfilment of the early days when life was hard but meaningful. Success didn’t taste as sweet as I’d imagined.

27: Move to Bali. Realise importance of discipline again. Get humbled in kickboxing gym daily. Already making more than enough money for my simple life. Just enjoy making vids and helping the students in my online school/brotherhood…

I don’t sell a million things—just *one* product: Adonis School. It’s my online school and brotherhood for young men, just like you and me. If you’ve made it this far, it’s a sign—you belong here: https://hamza.thrivecart.com/adonis-school

Hamza

PS. I still enjoy growing my family business. It’s fun. But I’m quite aware that chasing views and money isn’t the point of life. Now the focus is on being the best man I can be, and sharing my insights to you so you can get the lessons without the scars.